i n s i d e l i n g o

This past week has been very so moody.
As easy as it is to take something or somebody for granted, it's even easier to take a feeling for granted.


You know what it's like to be in one place or another. Why would it change, when it's always been the same?
It's always been the same. You know what it's like to get on the train, bus or car on your way to work. You know how you'll feel. Same as maybe groceryshopping, going to the pub or seeing your best friend. Sure, situations may vary but basically, it's the same old game.
Just as it is with new people.
You meet someone new and you immediately get the feel of the person.
You automatically know how to act, react and interact with this person. It'll stay the same.
Naturally emotions may change as you're getting to know the person, but the same feel will still be there.
Making any sense?

So one morning, a few days ago, my feel toward the people I met was different. Not bad-different or good-different... Just different.
It almost felt like I was living the life of someone else. Somebody elses feel.
I "snapped" out of it eventually, after many hours. But still, it had me thinking...
Why had that happened? What had triggered it?
My mind wondered to dreams... How is it that for every dream, our feel is completely different?
We're still the same person? Probably seeing and doing things pretty far from reality, but even so?

I've come to no conclusion yet, tho' I've realized just how simple it is to be... Just ourselves.
We are who we are, we think the way we think and we feel the way we do.
This comes naturally, nothing we think about really.
But if we did. If we did actually think about it more often... How we are, think and feel... And why.
Maybe we would we start to notice changes?
...Or maybe we'd get bored with it quickly.



Yea, this week has been moody.
The scale of my life doesn't ever seem to hit a low.
Just reaching new highs for every magical moment.
If I even started about last night I'd be here typing for hours... The word spectacular will have to do. Thank you.
And Friday...  Just loved every minute of it.
<3

On the other hand I seem to have lost someone. I don't know where you are? What happened?
I'll be here, waiting for your call.

Workworkwork tomorrow... Oh my... Better go get some sleep.
So good night, for the last time. Tonight. (:
Jill Adam


Look, I found it! (;