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Bare with me on this one...


How 'bout being thrown into something completely surreal.
A place where the floors are the walls and where the ceiling is nonexistant.
A space with new scents, visions, ambitions... Like a parallel universe.
This new universe where You have the power to make Your own rules, prioritize in an unfamiliar way and most importantly; totally and freely, speak your mind.
Yeah, how 'bout that?


Like a drug entering your body for the first time, you feel frightened.
You want what you know. You want what makes you feel safe.
So now...
Say that you learn that what makes you feel safe and all the things that you know,
suddenly seize to exist.
Everything you used to be, all that you knew is now so completely irrelevant, to the point where they've vanished.

What is it that goes through your mind as you're desperately looking for comfort?
Is it fear of survival?
Or is it something else?

Is it maybe the dawn of a smile?
Maybe you start to realize, as the drug has you at it's highest high, that you've utterly underestimated life? And if so, how much can you really touch? Is it real?

You start looking around.
You start really looking around, examining every part of all you can see.
Learing not to be afraid. Taking a deep breath, absorbing as much as you possibly can and going on to learn about the next thing. Eventually finding it's all real and also how very real it really is.

You start to find comfort in ways you could never imagine.
The rules are for you to create.
At that moment, the world is yours.
You stumbled upon it and it didn't let you run away.
It's almost as if it handed you a cigarette and matches and sat you down for a while.
Sat you down for a one to one chat and you really wanted to listen.
And you really understood it.


Now...
Imagine this world, slowly but surely, leading you toward a set of stairs.
These stairs leading no direction, up, down, front or to the side... You don't know.
But that doesn't matter.
You've learned all you needed to learn and you've captured all what you needed to capture to make this next place, this next space, a true journey.

It's all locked up, safe, inside you and can not be taken away by anything or anyone.
I thank this world for all it has filled me with.


And as I walk the steps, holding the stair rail for balance, I smile for what life has in store for me next...

Yours Truly.